Do you believe in destiny?

Would I see him again tomorrow? Would he maybe look at me and smile…or maybe at least a questioning look?
What happens when my parents choose a groom for me? Would I get married to him without getting to know him? Could I live with him after that?
Would I still hope to have a love affair after I’m married to someone I don’t know?
Would he?
Is it normal to feel like crying when you realize that you don’t have so much control over your destiny as much as you felt like you did?
Experiments with destiny —- have you done it…ever?
Do you have so much faith in yourself or in God?
Do you have the courage to experiment with destiny? What if you lose what you have now and never gain it back? What if your favorite person walks out of your life never to come back, but you don’t know it. Would you wish him luck and love for the rest of his life? Or maybe her life?
Would you happen to meet after years, months, weeks or maybe even days? Would you be able to stay away from him for that long? Would you have enough faith in destiny…that destiny would bring him back to you? What if the separation was voluntary —- knowing that it would be more painful and difficult to stay away than if an external force had kept you away from each other. How would you resist yourself from giving him a call or sending him a message? Would deleting his number from your book or mobile, help? Can you delete him from your life?
What if you learn that he happily leading his life staying away from you?
Would you be able to forgive him? Would you be angry at him in the first place?
Would you be able to forgive yourself for losing him?
I’m afraid.
I want to know what its like to lose control for once. And letting go.
Letting go of everybody around me. But I’m afraid to do so.
What if they don’t return?
Giving wings to every relationship I have….wondering whether their feet would stay rooted to the ground. Or whether they would fly away never to return.
Am I a coward to feel like this? I know I’m insecure and afraid.
Does that make me weak?
If I voluntarily push someone away from me, would that count as letting go?
I know I will never be able to forgive myself if he happens never to return. I’ll die inside… a little everyday.
Would destiny actually be so cruel with me? Experimenting with it would be doing something voluntarily and not under the pressure of circumstances.
Am I strong enough?
I’m doubting my own faith in destiny at a point in my life when I’m ready to take chances. Does that make me a coward? What price would I have to pay for my experiment? Can I afford it at this stage?

Do you believe in destiny?